Saturday, January 10, 2009

I used to thank my lucky stars that I'm quite independent and strong, but now I'm not so sure anymore. The solitude cracks once in a while, and when it does, I catch a glimpse of loneliness underneath it all. I have friends who tell me of their relationship problems, that the guys they like either don;t notice them, or is in love with another gal. I thought, hey, such a thing will never happen to me because I'm Little Miss Independent. But I could not be any more mistaken. I guess now I truly understand hoiw my friends feel. But I don't really mind, actually. The prospects of a relationship actually scares me, and I don't think I'm actually ready for it just yet. Just as long as he is happy, I don't mind being in the sidelines, just watching. I mean, I have never put myself before anything or anyone, and I don't intend to begin just yet. So for now, I'm just contented watching him be happy, knowing that the girl is doing something that I cannot do for him somehow makes me feel greatful towards her, I guess. And I must admit, after a while, I get used to the hollow feeling deep in my heart.

Time: 1345
Date: 11/01/2009

Hollow...

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