Sunday, January 18, 2009

I guess there is no point in typing in a title for my entries for two reasons, the first being that I have no good ideas for an entry title and the second being the fact that the title never appears on my actual blog anyway. I guess my calm and cheerful surface cracked a little today, because I'm quite tired. I told my sister that I needed a break away from it all, away from her and the source of my problems. But of course, I did not really mention what my problems are. She's not going to take me seriously, nobody will. The only person who took me seriously was paid to do so, so I have nothing left to say really.I have been waking up really early for the past two mornings as well, which is strange because I never wake up before nine on weekend mornings, or rather, morning which I am not required to go to school. I woke up at half past six on Saturday morning, and at seven this morning, a Sunday of all mornings to wake up early on! Haha, to me, it is really strange because I did not even set my alarm. Yesterday night, before I went to sleep, I chatted with friend of mine for a while. He said something that made me feel that he was actually taking me seriously, which is really rare because even my own family take me as a joke. But I'm not going to allow myself to get used to it, because he will be leaving next year and I will end up like before once more. I don't think I will be able to adapt as quickly this time, it will be much too painful. As good as I am at adapting, I tend to falter when it comes to emotions. So right now, the best way to protect myself is to actually stay away from all possible sources of pain. Haha, I just realised how emo this whole entry sounds. But then again, I'm being human. I've been so cheerful for the past three weeks or so, it's bordering on being idiotic. But I don't mind, I guess. Those who know me really well would readily admit that I might just be the craziest person they know. Hell, I think I am the craziest person I know, haha. I guess that should be all for now, I don't like to pour all my troubles into one single entry, haha. Besides, I have my Marine Engineering Knowledge exam to study for, haha. So, ciao for now!

Time: 1940
Date: 18/01/2009

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