Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Right now I'm in my I.T for Shipping Business class, and because I have finished my part for the group project, I have nothing left to do. Attachment is going to start very soon, and for the first time in my life, I am actually looking forward to something, haha. I don't know why, but I am so afraid of disappointments. One would think that after all the disappointments I was made to go through, I would have gotten used to it by now. But I'm not, and every single day, I get reminded of how disappointment feels like, but I brush it aside. That's what we're supposed to do when we fall, right? Pick ourselves up and brush off before moving on... haha, today I sound very emo. But the truth is, I'm just plain bored and when there is nothing for me to do, my past catches up with me. That's the real reason why i'm always on the move, if not with school, then i would drag my mother and my sister out. It is easier to preoccupy myself with everything else, just for that momentary escape. Haha, pathetic, I know. But what is worse is that despite all my efforts, I still can't push HIM out of my mind!!! But like I said before, as long as he's happy and contented so will I be, haha. Just wanted to get that off my chest for now, haha... off to do some last minute research now :)

Time: 0945

Shida | 5:27 PM | comments