Saturday, December 19, 2009

As expected, nothing happened to me as usual. Spent the whole night vomitting blood though, and the sleepless night left me feeling a little weak. My parents couldn't be bothered as usual, I don't know why I keep expecting otherwise. Maybe as a kid I expect my parents to come through for me, since they always say that parents only want the best for their children. Somehow, it is a whole lot harder to see that with my own parents. I don't think I will ever understand why they are doing this to me, because should I have my own kid in the future, I would rather let him/her go out and have a curfew than live a life of a hermit, kind of the way I am living right now. I don't like being a hermit, my friends all think that I am anti-social. Very few understand the kind of parents I have, and most of them don't really believe that my parents are that unreasonable. My mother tried to get my father to talk to me this morning, and at the end of it all, not only I was too tired to be pissed off, I was emotionally drained and had wished with all my might that the cocktails worked. They had to... right now my new friends can't even help me get out of this life I have. Right, I realise that I am being an emo kid again. But somehow, I can't help it. I have to resort to sneaking out this coming monday. I don't like that, it is as though I am a thief. I am really trying to look on the brighter side of things right now, and the only thing I can think of is that I save money by going out with my mother and sister along. But even then, I still have to spend when I want to eat something like Fish&Co... Damn, I really need to learn how to let this issue go man...

Time: 0110
Date: 20/12/2009

Shida | 8:53 AM | comments