Wednesday, December 16, 2009

I seriously think that there is something wrong with me. But then again, with parents like mine, it's kinda hard to know what normal really is. Am I reading/ thinking too much into things? But then again, I've always been a thinker. It is better to think too much than feel too much. So why am I feeling so depressed right now? To think that my lecturer even wanted to talk to him, and/or provide me with alegal counsel. Is that really necessary? I thought it sounded a little funny when I first heard it just now. But thinking about it now, I realised that it is just messed up if things got bad enough and an outsider had to step in. It happened once before... now it is just a relapse. That's what you get for hoping I guess... I am a fool, always was, always have been. It is about time I wise up, but strangely enough, I don't. And I don't think I ever will...

But on a lighter note, I had a great time with my friends just now. They've been great. But the only thing I fear is that when they leave, I'll have trouble getting back on my own two feet once more. I'm being silly again, letting people get close to me. But this bunch... they are like... I don't know how to say. I don't know how to turn my back to them, and frankly speaking I don't know if I want to leave either. I guess that is what burdens me the most...

Damn, an emo entry... just my luck. Something is seriously wrong with me tonight... I think I ate too much...

Time: 2325
Date: 16/12/2009

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